fairy tales about this boy

okay let's start this story about this boy....
His name with initial R, gue nggak bakal nyebut namanya tp let's just call him R
kalo disuruh pilih lagu gue akan pilih james morrison yang this boy, lagu ini mungkin sedikit bisa menggambarkan cowok ini. bedanya yang ini lebih brengsek dan bejat. yang pas liriknya begini yaaaa:

This boy wants to play
There's no time left today
It's a shame coz he has to go home
This boy's got to work, got to sweat
Just to pay what he gets to get left all alone

oke i treat him like my brother. orang ini selalu sukses bikin gue senyum tp dia juga selalu berhasil ngancurin hati gue seperti biasanya. i'm just too sensitive but he sucks too.
well, he said so much things to me, tp gue nggak tau kenapa gue nggak bisa percaya sama dia. maybe cause in his heart, there is someone else. cewek yang udah lama bgt nemplok sm dia. okay everytime he told me about this girl, suddenly i cried tanpa dia harus tau.

maybe that's all, i will never sure about this man. after two years ago he hurted me now he is back. but i don't know anything about him. well, gue harus tanya lagi sama hati gue karena yang satu ini lebih lebih dari brengsek dan nggak bisa dipercaya. but damn, i don't know why but my heart always depending on him.

tiga bulan setelah tanggal 22 september, the night when i tried to fix our relationship and IT WORKS!!!! but now i regret it in a half of my heart. but sometimes i feel very lucky when he made me happy.

kalo gue dikasih kesempatan ngomong sama orang ini gue bakal ngomong:
hey jerk, i just need to get a normal life. every woman in this world wants to be loved. wants to get a true love. me too. i just need you to love me not because our family or something but it's just because you love me. and if you still love her, just say it to her. maybe someday i have to get out of your life so i won't let you and that girl hurts.

well, it sucks really. but i have to get it. everything that he told me about responsibility and caring each other dia harus buktikan ke semua orang. bukan gue. but for now... you make me feel very happy, so just pleaseeee don't let me down anymore